- The mental toll of living in a toxic home environment caused me to develop PTSD. In an effort to find peace, I took some time off from my life and I went to counseling for close to a year.
Here’s a little bit about my journey of my spiritual awakening and how it has completely transformed my life in so many ways.
I am a medical doctor who is trained in anesthesia and spent the last 10 years working as an expert medical witness, a personal injury physician, a physician consultant, and as a medical director at a Medical Spa.
I was also dealing with domestic violence for 2 years starting back in 2016. When two people engage in domestic violence and they both have the option to leave, and they choose to stay-then it’s not the fault of the woman or the man alone. It’s both of their fault because that’s when domestic violence becomes a disease. It becomes an addiction like alcoholism or drug addiction or gambling addiction or OCD or any other addiction. In the disease of domestic violence, just like in the disease of divorce, both parties become addicted to the fighting and the longer they stay in this toxic environment, the deeper entrenched they become in the addiction.
The mental toll of living in such a toxic home environment caused me to develop PTSD. In an effort to find peace, I took some time off from my life and I went to counseling for close to a year. I joined the Center for Spiritual Living. I went to live at a yoga ashram. I studied Vedic Astrology and Aryurvedic medicine. I tried Rekhi healing, crystals, sound baths, energetic tapping, and a long list of other energetic healing modalities. I tried implementing different dietary changes. Started practicing yoga, meditation, and breath work to calm me down and to ground me. You can ask me questions about just about everything because I basically tried almost anything out there
I have overcome so many challenges in my life since my spiritual awakening and the book that I wrote — “50 Shades of Pink” — is my own personal journey of healing. I healed though the pain of my mental trauma and PTSD that had overtaken my mind and my thinking for close to 3 years-a period of time where I felt-in the words of Nikki Smithton: “I was living almost in brain fog and barely felt like I was even there.” What allowed me to get my life back was learning how to change my mindset and honoring and cherishing how I was feeling. Although I have tried so many of these healing modalities and different ways to change my thinking, it wasn’t until I gave myself permission to be healthy and to be happy and to stop labeling myself as the sick person that I actually became healthy.
The Science of Chakras
I was first introduced to the concept of chakras and energetic well-being in 2018. The science of chakras and the science of mantra, two concepts that are integral to eastern medicine, are not taught to us here in Western societies. Because there was so little information about these principles out here, I started studying them on my own and spent close to a year researching chakras and the science of mantra before writing my book, “50 Shades of PINK.” Pink stands for heart chakra. Most people associate the color green with the heart chakra, but pink is also a contributor to the energetic significance of this chakra.
My spiritual guide at the Center for Spiritual Living (CSL), Dr. Keith Cox, has helped me to understand that spirituality is a mindset, and religion is a way of life. The Center for Spiritual Living has taught me that all religions are important, and no one religion is superior to another. Judaism teaches us wisdom, Islam teaches us submission (meaning to submit to the Law and Will of the Universe), Hinduism teaches us devotion, Christianity teaches us forgiveness — and the list goes on.
I was raised Hindu and while I still honor many of our cultural traditions, I choose to no longer follow any one religion and instead, I devote my time to my own individual spiritual journey that is a mindset of lifelong learning. Instead of looking at the differences between different religions, I work to integrate what I learn from each religion, each spiritual advisor, and each spiritual practice in a way that it applies to me individually for my individual soul’s journey through this lifetime.
And it’s not to say that I am 100% all the time because I still have some good days and some bad days, but most days are pretty good now, and I attribute that to my practice and my understanding of the science of chakras and the science of mantra. I also attribute my healing to being able to sit with myself and my thoughts and to love myself and love my breath and love my heart and to love everything that comes from it.
Dr. Suparna Saha studied molecular and cell biology at Carnegie Mellon University as an undergrad. She is medical doctor who graduated from USC Keck School of Medicine. She worked as an expert medical witness, physician consultant, personal injury physician, and as a medical director of a medical spa. She obtained board certifications in Integrative Medicine and Permanent Injury and Disability Medicine.